Hello Darkness – Truths about myself served on a platter (hold the salad)

I have recently started to become acquainted with all of the ‘bad’ parts of myself. Whether they are from the past, present or future. The stuff that I had tried to pretend didn’t exist.

The verdict?

Its fucking horrible but has been so worth it for my personal growth.

Some of my discoveries include, but are not limited to, these topics:

  • Insecurity
  • People Pleasing
  • Craving love and acceptance
  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Substance abuse
  • Judgemental behaviour
  • Bitching
  • Neediness
  • Clinginess
  • Unhealthy attachment
  • Manipulation
  • Nastiness
  • Blaming

I am guilty of all of these and the list goes on….

Do I sound terrible? Well I’m not. Truth is, I’m human, and I am an amazing one. Just like you. Crazy huh?

I plan to write about specific examples of each of these in future. Raw, brutal, confronting truths about myself served on a platter (hold the salad).

But here is a sneak peek. I recently felt threatened by a new friend who I admired for her humour, intellect and overall view of the world. My own insecurities that she was funnier, smarter and more wordly than me led me to feel like I could be replaced and I began to criticize and pick holes in her character and created a story in my head that I felt I needed to protect myself from her from what I ‘thought’ she was doing to me.

WARNING: PLOT TWIST!

It was bullshit. She wasn’t doing anything to hurt me. I pushed through my fear, put my ego aside and spoke to her honestly. It was hard, embarrassing and scary but I did it anyway. That friendship has flourished and has brought us closer than I thought we could have been. Great result.

What I have learnt by talking about these issues is that I am not alone. Far from it. I believe most people can relate to at least one, if not all of them.

Guess what. That’s fucking awesome!!

EVERYONE is good and bad. We are human. It’s all a part of life and how we learn. Hiding the bad parts of ourselves can make us feel isolated, disconnected and alone.

I can’t be authentic if I hide the parts of myself that make me who I am. I can’t have the kind of friendships and relationships I want if I hide myself from them.

So I fucking shared!! I shared the dark parts of myself. Telling people how terrible I thought I was actually helped me realise how amazing I am.

It was only then that I was able to take responsibility for them and really work through them so that I could take a step closer to becoming the person I want to be.

If someone tries to share the bad parts of themselves with you. Please support them. Love them. Understand them. Knowing that you yourself have experienced similar situations should promote acceptance not judgement.

So here I am. Mostly a good cunt, but kind of a shit cunt.

  • The Spiritual Bogan
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6 Responses to “Hello Darkness – Truths about myself served on a platter (hold the salad)

  • Oh that last line made do the thing we know I hate the most chook, I LOLed my sexy ass off!!!!! You dead set legend xoxoxox

    • SpiritualBogan
      4 years ago

      Thank you so Much. I appreciate your support. Its so great to know others can relate.

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  • Lee Thomas
    4 years ago

    Love your writings, so good to read , thank you 🙂

    • SpiritualBogan
      4 years ago

      Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. So glad you enjoyed it. Makes it all worth it xo

  • Love it!

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